Is there an end to this? I ask myself this question every Friday. Usually about 4:45am on my drive to work. I like to work. I like paychecks even more, but something has to give. I am completely miserable with my schedule right now. I don't think Sophia likes it either, and I know Casey hates it. I don't have a choice right now. I have too much going on right now to turn down the money. What I really want to know is: Is this all worth it? Is my hard work going to pay off? I am sacrificing so much right now just to get a paycheck. I want to know for certain that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Unfortunately, there is pretty much not such thing as certainty. I keep telling myself that I need to be grateful for what I have. I have a paying job, and I have the externship I have been wanting since I left for law school. I have the most supportive family, friends, and fiancee imaginable. I have a roof over my head. I look forward to seeing my dog at the end of the day. I am blessed. I have been given the opportunity to become a lawyer. I really took a hard hit when I found out I could not be in the military. I have always wanted to do public service, and I feel this is the best way for me to contribute to society. Right now it sucks though. I feel spent. I actually have to go to sleep now (6:40 pm on a Friday night) so I can work tonight. Fuck. Is there an end to this?