I took Sophia to the park today when I got home from Cooley. I usually try to let her off of the leash as much as possible when we are in wide open spaces. Just like yesterday (shame on me), she ran up to a particular spot of the field used for Cooley falg football on the weekends. There, she found puddle of iced-over vomit and just couldn't contain herself. I miss Casey. Sophia probably wouldn't have gone too far if Case was around. I am almost finished with school. My student loans will soon go into repayment. God willing, Casey and I will be married by this time next year. Maybe then these dark circles under my eyes will go away. Maybe then the knot in my stomach will unravel. Hopefully then these insecurities that we both deal with will be forgotten. I took the MPRE (ethics test) this weekend. I will be swamped for the next three weeks. Papers coming due. I tried my best to make it home for Casey's big day on Sunday. She had her first studio recital, and I had to miss it. Instead of being there to support her, I was stuck in a room full of people I hardly know (and probably will not speak to again after I leave here). I had to give up being with the love of my life to be with the next generation of the organization's board (whose decisions will never affect me). Needless to say, the mood is depressing around here. Everyone is getting ready for finals, term papers, trials, briefs, arguments, etc. I think I have said only a few words to my roommate today, and we've been home together for almost four hours. There is snow on the ground here. I would like to curl up into a ball, cover myself with blankets, and not get out of bed until December 4. After I wake, I would promptly pack up whatever my car could carry, and head home...I'd go one of three places: 1) U of I to be with Case if she wanted me there; 2) NL to be with the friends, if case didn't want me at U of I; 3) Colorado for a week, if Julie would have me. My shoulders hurt now because it is so cold here. I have my second trial starting tomorrow. Not feeling too good about much of anything right now. Maybe I should take a nap.